Current mood:	exhausted
Current music:	Met a boy from Spain, his name is Santi, short for Santiago!

I miss my friends.
So it looks like I CAN'T go to that awesome festival I wanted to go to. I CAN'T go see people I never get to hang out with. If i could muster the nerve to be a little selfish for once and skip out on this mandatory party (who ever heard of such a thing?!) I could go on what will no doubt be an amazing road trip to CONEY ISLAND, I've never been to CONEY ISLAND. But this is what I found when I searched for images on Google:



I don't know about you, but that looks like a fun place. Magical, even.

Sigh. No Death Cab for cutie for me. No Mission of Burma, the rockingest old dudes around (next to my dad). Oh well. Things have been dwindling down at work, I feel like I'm on a lot of bad sides, for really silly stuff. I'm so ready to be around people who share my sense of humor and perverse knowledge of popular culture.

I think I'm being slightly forgiven by an old friend I thought I'd totally alienated. A big goal for me this year will be to maintain friendships I have instead of always screwing things up. Moving around so much sort of makes you feel like your social life will be reset every few years, meaning you'll be absolved from whatever you did to whoever you used to know. But we're all getting older and I find myself wanting to go to greater lengths to keep the friends I have found, and to make new ones. It is proving worth it to me to go against my nature and swallow my pride, be honest even when I'd much rather play the hermit crab, to come out of my shyness hibernation and to not be so harshly critical of the world sometimes. I have a bad tendency to become this girl:




But then, is that really so bad?

;)

CR